Strength in Weakness

Just wanted to share a quick example of God's sovereignty in my life on Wednesday.

I don't know what happened, but for some reason, when we woke up on Wednesday morning, Kendrick decided he was not going to be going potty in the toilet anymore. He decided to go everywhere BUT the toilet. Yay. Camden was fussy and teething. Kendrick had an "accident" in his booster seat and another one on the couch.

This resulted in Mommy responding by being sinfully angry and in Kendrick throwing a 45-minute tantrum.

Needless to say, it was not a very good day. Here is what my husband said, "Your circumstances make you a perfect candidate for God's grace."

He was right. Unfortunately, I responded to that truth with some more sinful anger.

Later I was attempting to make pizza for dinner and was trying to have it ready to put in the oven when we got back from picking up Kyle from work. I kept pounding/kneading the dough while both boys were screaming in the other room. I couldn't get it to roll out without making holes in it. The harder I tried the worse it got. I decided it would have to wait and just left it on the pizza pan and loaded the boys in the car to go pick up their father.

Due to my failed dinner attempt, Kyle graciously took us to Subway to eat quickly before church. I definitely didn't want to go to church. I had to nurse my infant, and I had to try to decide what to do with my 2-year-old that was on a potty strike. Earlier in the week I had promised one of our teens that I would be there on Wednesday night for youth group. I knew I had to keep my word, but wow, I was not going with a good attitude.

When we arrived I noticed that one of our girls was distressed. We went into the other room to talk, and she shared what was going on while I bounced Camden on my knee. We prayed together, talked through some things and even cried a bit. God is so good. If I had not gone to church, I would not have had this opportunity. All I could think of was 2 Corinthians 12:9 - "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." I knew that I was in no position to offer counsel or spiritual guidance. I had spent the majority of my day with a very angry heart towards my sons, my husband, and my God for the circumstances He allowed. I was a sinner full of sin. And yet, isn't this the beauty of the gospel? It's never about us. In and of ourselves, we are never able to give godly counsel or advice. God's strength and wisdom in us via His Spirit is what does the work.

I'm so grateful that God used a difficult day to remind me that it's not all about me and that HE wants to work through me - especially when I am at my weakest - so that HE can get all the glory.